by Lee W. Sang
When I moved to New York, I imagined I’d be a
world-class Ashtanga teacher in SoHo leading morning Mysore
with subway vibrations under my feet. I dreamed of late night
sessions interpreting the Bhagavad Gita with the kind of
flexible minds I didn’t stumble upon often in my hometown of
Amarillo, Texas. As it turns out, yoga doesn’t pay the rent in
these parts. Instead, I’m stuck mixing cocktails at private
parties, but I suppose I’m one of the lucky ones. As long as I
show off my well-earned biceps and charm the society folks
without picking my teeth, I can bring in all the cash I need.
I’m working the bar tent at this Fourth of July BBQ by the
beach, and I’m dazzling the crowd until this muscular, little
guy orders a Caipirinha.
“Where the hell’s the vodka?” he asks after taking a taste.
“A Caipirinha’s made with cachaça,” I say. “Brazilian holy
“Maybe where you’re from, but I’ve never had a Caipirinha
“Then you’ve never had a proper Caipirinha, sir.” I throw him a
smile to lighten the mood, but his panties are already in a
Caipirinha educates me about his trip to Brazil—Sao Paulo,
Rio de Janeiro and Fortaleza all in one trip. He insists they
know how to make a correct Caipirinha there. While I'm sure
they do, Brazilians don’t drink vodka. Anyone with a map and
a taste for liquor knows that.
The tall girl with him touches his arm. “Please, Dad, don’t.
“No worries,” I say, “I’m happy to make it any way he likes it.”
But the host already senses potential disorder brewing and
works his way toward us. He puts his hand in the center of
Caipirinha’s back to reassure him he’ll get his drink served on
my bare ass if that’s what he desires.
Caipirinha smirks as he walks away. I try to find my inner
peace. Inhale. Pause. Exhale. Repeat. On the third exhale, his
daughter starts breathing with me.
She has big-bones and thighs that are a touch too wide for
her bohemian dress, but she is the only one there who looks
like a woman instead of a man, with soft skin that hasn’t
been chiseled by a personal trainer.
“My dad shouldn’t speak to you like that,” she says, and I feel
the sting of shame.
“I’m just keeping my head down ‘til I get enough cash to go
to India. I’m gonna study Sanskrit with Arundhati Sri Jha.”
India is only a pipe dream for me, but I know if I throw a
crunchy girl like her a nugget like that, she’ll be listening to
Krishna Das in my apartment soon enough.
Her name is Ruby and she pulls up a chair near the bar and
people-watches with me. She is visiting her dad before college
kicks off—the school is his choice, not hers—and she is no
more of a regular in that crowd than I am.
She can’t stop watching her dad a few feet away. He is
shouting at the Cuban sculptor. I know the guy is Cuban
because he told me so when he ordered the Cuba Libre and
rambled on about the profound influence his Cuban heritage
had on his art.
“Do you ever look around your family and wonder how you can
ever expect to be normal?” Ruby asks.
I tell Ruby about my seventh-grade art project, when I re-
painted an entire Norman Rockwell picture, “Freedom from
Want,” the one with all those perfect, color-splashed kids
smiling around a decadent turkey. I copied the whole scene,
but added myself in the corner, dressed in black and eating
nothing but a plate of green beans with a python wrapped
around my neck.
She barely gets out a laugh when Caipirinha gives Cuba Libre
a small push in the center of the chest. Cuba Libre stands tall
and pulls his arms away from the core of his body. An
awkward fighting stance at best. Not for nothing, but the
Texan in me just can’t see how a man can act tough while
wearing linen pants.
Ruby runs over to stop her father before a full fight breaks out.
“Stay back,” Caipirinha says, raising his hand in the air as he
turns toward Ruby. She retreats and shies away. No one else
would notice such a small cower, but my daddy was the sort
who believed discipline was only effective if he had to ice his
hand afterwards, so I recognize that tiny movement, that brief
second when you forget you’re a grown up. You still think the
beat down is coming. Suddenly you’re seven years old again
and wondering if you can still wedge yourself in that space
between the wall and the back of the toilet so the porcelain
can protect you.
I know I’m right, because Ruby disappears into the garden. I
call out to her but she doesn’t turn around. She doesn’t return
until after the pre-fireworks rush is finished. She slips in
behind me as the first explosion colors the sky, right as I’m
fixin’ to sneak myself a bourbon straight up.
“Don’t say a word,” she says. “Just get me out of here.” She
carries her pool bag on her hip.
I follow her the back way toward my car and take the heavy
tote from her, knowing full well I’m leaving my post, my job,
and the clothes I brought to change into.
“Where am I taking you?” I ask.
Ruby carefully pulls her towel out of the bag and unwraps the
folds to reveal a small, glass sculpture. I don’t notice the
Cuban influence, but I know it is more expensive than
anything I’ve ever held in my hand before.
“India,” she says. “I’ve always wanted to see Varanasi.”
Lee W. Sang’s fiction has appeared or is forthcoming in the
Valparaiso Fiction Review, Iron Horse Literary Review, The
Penman Review, and The Westchester Review. She received
an honorable mention in Glimmer Train’s Short Story Award for
New Writers and she is writing her first novel. She lives
outside of New York City, where she is a founding member of
the Rivertown Writers Collective. In addition to writing, she
spent many years working in finance and currently manages
real estate in New York City.